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reflections

2010-10-19T20:50:00.002+08:00

it been really really long since i last blogged. not many will drop by now. =)i was on duty on a saturday and i booked out on a sunday. i was thinking of getting my watch repaired and henceforth i went to woodland centre but it was not open so i went home. it doesnt matter. along the way on 911, i passed by my secondary school back gate and back to my old house that i used to stay. how much have

environment

2010-08-29T11:06:00.003+08:00

its been pretty long since i last blogged just an incident that happen in camp that im really unhappy about. that i just wanna say about my feelings. i know my PC wont read this but my specs and i are increasingly unhappy about him.don question my command decision when you yourself can't decide on what you want. when i command, i know the end state that i wanna achieve. things will be much faster

Mixed feelings

2010-08-09T20:29:00.002+08:00

luck wasnt on my side this few days. I lost my camp pass, id tag, and almost lost a controlled equipment in camp. i do not know why luck is so bad. in fact, feel kinda down though. because of lost ID tag (if you guys do not what is ID tag, its more commonly known as dog tag which serviceman wears). and when i told my OC i lost it outfield, i was given extra duty to do this coming week. i will

Stress

2010-06-20T22:40:00.003+08:00

Initially, I wanted to type an email to Ivy, someone whom I look for when I need advice and show me the light, like a younger brother who talks to his elder sister. But I guess, I should handle it myself and hence I am here to blog this out.Going into 2 sir and transiting from a cadet to a 3rd sergeant its never easy, I feel very stressful. As a cadet, you always listen, you just listen. People

2 sir

2010-06-05T13:47:00.003+08:00

I'm posted to 2 sir which is at Ang Mo Kio, Amoy Quee camp. I would prefer to become an instructor though.I have pass out from Specialist Cadet School(SCS), and I have gotten a silver bayonet. It is a bayonet that is give to people who are top 10 percent of the cohort and I am in it and top 10 in my company and as a result of this, I have to go a unit and not stay in training school. I do not

we were both young when i first saw you.

2010-05-07T13:00:00.001+08:00

This song just fit perfectly to you & I. Back then when I first saw you at the interchange, you were only 14 and I was 15. I got your email from Wei Kang, I still remember your email was o0_shenjiaying_0o@hotmail.com. and i got your number after a few times we chatted on MSN. and i started smsing you though not often but that was enough to make my day. I remembered wei li and i was walking to cwp

Happy birthday kor

2010-05-03T15:20:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday kor On this day where I am out in the field training in thailand, I would like to wish my bro happy birthday. Kor, happy birthday. Hope you like the present that both sis and I got for you. =) Didi.

Emo songs

2010-04-30T15:07:00.001+08:00

People have been asking me why do I like to listen to emo songs, like those break up songs. and they say its not as if my girlfriend have left me. i found an answer, i finally found one. it is because through listening to all these songs, i learn to treasure, when i listen to those songs, it felt as if my girlfriend has left me. that is how i learn to treasure her and perhaps that is also how

Thailand

2010-04-23T15:04:00.000+08:00

Alright, I am off to thailand tonight for training. will be back 3 weeks later. =) I came across this old song called superman by five for fighting. it just reflects about my feelings when im wearing green. look at the lyrics. it says it all about a soldier who is lonely out in the field fighting. I can't stand to fly I'm not that naive I'm just out to find The better part of me I'm more than

Birthday

2010-04-05T21:36:00.002+08:00

Yes, if you have seen my facebook, I have turned 21. It was really a last minute decision to celebrate. Actually I don't intend to. There were many that I wanted to invite, but I was in camp, I got no time to sms people hence I only invited a few. I have completed my 32 click. And I will be getting my combat skills badge soon. we started the march at 830 pm. and we ended at 9 pm the next day. And

happy birthday

2010-03-26T21:30:00.006+08:00

it has been a month plus since i last blogged. many things happen.i have passed my soc on my first attempt with a timing of 8.57. i have passed my 10 click run with 49.12 mins. officially, i have passed the course requirement. just that i have to attend all the training that is planned out. i am in ASLC as you all know, and in my section, i carry the most heavy's weapon which is the matador. it

ASLC - CHARLIE

2010-02-12T21:00:00.004+08:00

Posting is out. I am posted to ASLC which stands for advance section leader course and of course being in infantry, im stucked in Pasir Laba camp but this time my coy is CHARLIE coy. It's like everyone does not want to be in this coy or bravo coy because of the toughness as compared to other coy. I have this thinking that, since I can survive BMT which is really tough, I guess I will be able to

I felt like shit

2010-02-07T16:19:00.002+08:00

I felt like shit because yesterday I was cycling home after I went to jiaying's home and along the way, I saw this very 70 plus year old man, he hailed a cab and his wife was on a wheelchair. They were probably going somewhere, and there were only 2 of them, I cycled passed them and I wanted to help, but then I was thinking to myself, how to help? As he has to help his wife to the cab and keep

SISPEC

2010-01-17T12:29:00.004+08:00

It's been a month plus since I last blogged. I have been posted to SISPEC and my camp now currently is in Pasir Laba which is near Joon Koon. Jurong West Area. Training has been okay, just that it is completely different from BMT. We have more freedom, and there are more lectures as compared to Physical training. And of course, with lectures, there will always be test. It is not difficult to pass

POP LO

2009-12-13T10:53:00.002+08:00

I have officially POP from my Basic Military Training. I don't have to go back to tekong anymore. It feels good. I don't like to take the ferry to book in. When the ferry reaches the Tekong ferry terminal, I felt like shit. I am no different from ordinary people, I hate to book in. When we are marching back to our COY line, this will be our favourite song, walo walo walo walo ha hawalo walo walo

16 click and lastly 24 click

2009-12-06T15:06:00.002+08:00

I have completed 16 click route march. It was tough. Really tough for me at the last 4 click. this is how route marches is done. we will walk 4 click in the space of an hour or at a faster pace which is 45 minutes. den we will rest for 15 minutes for water break and all. at 12 click we will rest for meals. which is about an hour. den we will carry on the rest of the distance.the last 4 click was

i gotta feeling

2009-11-22T09:30:00.002+08:00

i gotta feelingthat tonight is gonna be a good nightthat tonight is gonna be a good nightthat tonight is gonna be a good good night.2 more weeks to POP. thinking back i just enlisted on 6th october. now im on my way to POP. feels pretty good. i no longer care where my posting will be. just pass out and i will be happy. i don't like that ferry to tekong. i don like to see pasir ris mrt except when

A month.

2009-10-31T15:34:00.002+08:00

its been a month since i last blogged. i have enlisted into NS on 6th october 2009 and i have always wanted to blog on weekends when i book out but i didn't have the energy to. i have been sleeping and sleeping, nothing but sleeping when i am out on weekends. training has been tiring, but yet each time when i finish it, i felt i have achieved something. there were times, that i wanna give up and

army

2009-09-30T00:46:00.002+08:00

officially, 6 more days to army. having mixed feelings now. i feel happy, excited, nervous, at the same time, also scared, worried. i guess all the rest feels the same. i feel stressed up also. because only on weekends, i will be home. how sucky can that be.okay. i have been meeting up friends. like primary school all the way to poly. going in army, definitely i wont have time. i sincerely thank

another achievement.

2009-09-15T11:25:00.003+08:00

Okay. Great. On 6/9/2009, my friends were planning on a cycling trip. And we decided to cycle on 12/6/2009, saturday night. We planned to cycle from woodlands to tampines. On saturday night, everyone met at triple 8, woodlands at 12am. There was Zhi Hong, Seng Hong, Zhi Cay, You Long, Wei Hong, Jun Pern unfortunately Sze Kai has urgent matters to attend to but its okay, he can always join us next

Some things to share

2009-08-28T03:46:00.001+08:00

I know I told you people that I will blog. But I haven't done so. I need to get my thoughts and feelings in place before I can blog. Nono. Its the mood to blog. I haven't found it yet. Sorry.I will blog tomorrow. I mean later. Right now. let me get to sleep. remember to come back. =)

read on.

2009-08-25T14:37:00.000+08:00

i always have this worry whenever jiaying goes out to the a new place. like she started her attachment in creative yesterday. and i start to worry if she will be okay with work. if things going to be fine for her. if she will be bullied by her colleagues and all. i always worry and will continue to worry for her. yes yes. i am over protective but this is me. Maybe when i knew her, she was only 14

service learning

2009-08-25T02:17:00.000+08:00

i watched this show on channel u last thursday at 8pm. it shows about celebrity going overseas to help the poor. and the episode i watch was zeng shi mei and tang yu shu. they were there for about 6 days. they went there to teach english, to help the kids wash their hair, and some other stuffs. the last day, she gave clothes to the ladies of the village she went to, and it was not enough, she

hmmm..

2009-08-20T15:42:00.000+08:00

its my 150 post. and very soon i will be in army. as the date draws nearer, i am not so looking forward to it anymore maybe because my friends, who has been booking out on sat and booking in on sun feel so sad. i guess i would be very much in their plight soon. and the thought of booking out on sat and booking in on sun just turns me off. i was talking to my friend, if we turn it the other way

wake me up when september ends

2009-08-05T00:59:00.002+08:00

tuesdays with morrie.morrie was down with a sickness. he came out of the hospital and look at everyone. there were all busy with their own stuffs, no one is stopping for him. the clock is still ticking. morrie was sadden and thought.......... these is one of the part in the book tuesdays with morrie. we are just a tiny bit, we are just a living thing on earth. we are so busy with our lives that

environment

2009-07-24T01:17:00.002+08:00

alright. just some random thoughts that i had today when i was on my way to play badminton. I was thinking, how is one's character build? through genes? or through the environment? certain laziness that i have, my dad also have. so when my mum nags, i will say it always dad's fault because i am his son and i followed his habits. is it genes? innate? or because when i was young, my dad showed this

now i get to know myself better

2009-07-16T14:37:00.003+08:00

i quit my job after a day in it. seriously, i can't work in admin job. i have to sit there, efiling, tracking, then file the file into the storeroom. man! why is so many people looking for admin jobs? i thought it would be fun. but it was just way too boring. then there are times that there is nth to do and you have to pretend that you have sth to do. man! save me. i can't see myself continuing

like finally!

2009-07-08T15:40:00.002+08:00

finally, i have found a job and its confirmed. i will be working in southwest CDC which is at jurong summit coming monday. an admin job. the pay is 5.25 an hour. well i don't care about the pay, just give me something to do on weekdays! haha! im so freaking happy that my friend has found me this job. when i get my pay, will treat my friend a meal. finally boredom is leaving me. working hours are

in search of an identity

2009-07-07T01:35:00.002+08:00

I feel as I am suffering from Mid life crisis. haha. that's not true. well i guess i am the age of looking for a partner and looking for my identity. I remembered studying in one of the modules about at different age, you are looking for something. damn. i am so damn free. that i think i am going mad. well, nvm. i have got a friend who found me a job and if its confirmed, it will start next week.

life is just too short

2009-07-01T14:43:00.004+08:00

3rd aunt has been cremated. Yesterday was the last time I saw her, and then forever, I won't see her anymore. Not anymore. Please take care of yourself. My aunt's death has woke me up. That humans do die. I always have this kind of thinking that death would only happen to others not to my family and my uncles, aunts & grandparents. Now it has happen, it woke up me. Big time. And frankly, i am

It's been long

2009-06-26T00:17:00.002+08:00

Been long since I last blog. My brother has come back. He came back on 11th June 2009. Been long, 3 years and 4 months. Back then I was still a 16 year old kid going 17. I felt happy. Really happy to see him back. I still remember when he was on remand and my mum and I went to visit him in Queenstown remand, when I saw him, I just cried. It hurt me really badly. I tried my best to control my

Life is boring

2009-06-01T21:55:00.003+08:00

Its kind of funny. While girlfriend is packed with things to do, yet I have nothing to do. It is so bored. Anyone can give me job? Part time? Only monday to friday. How i wish i was packed with things to do. I had enough rest. I wanna work or at least give me something to do. damn.

videos

2009-05-27T13:12:00.002+08:00

I was blog hopping and found this 2 videos from http://benthegeek.wordpress.com/ Enjoy.**singlish translation to keep its humourous content23rd of june is a bad dateIt is also brother’s(young men) elistment dateWaking up early in the morning to catch a cabEnding up in CMPB(central man power base)Aiyo aiyo aiaiyo ah Aiyo aiyo aiaiyo ahArriving at CMPBSergent confiscate our red card(ICs)Asks me to

Thoughts

2009-05-25T11:36:00.003+08:00

I was at one of the lowest point of my life on 17th May 2009. I felt so down and I had a slight thought of suicide. You guys must be shock as I am saying this kind of stuffs. At that particular night, I felt so insecure after reading a book by Subhas Anand. The best I could. The cases inside talks about people who are sentenced to life imprisonment, or being hanged. Perhaps I was too tired as you

Sometimes, you just don't understand my point. Hopefully now you do.

2009-05-07T01:37:00.001+08:00

Just how different things can be if you hear things from an indirect source as compared to the direct source. Point to made is that do talk things out instead of going through another one or you can have a 3rd party but 2 of you are there also. I felt ready and open once again due to my friend who unknowingly convince me. I do hope that things will become better and better. I heaved a sigh of

Random thoughts

2009-04-22T00:04:00.003+08:00

Just some random thoughts that I have.I am famous in class because I once made that statement that humans are selfish. Each one of us are. We take care of our own needs first before giving to others. We talk to people to cure our boredom. We made friends for our own benefits. I guess as much, criticism has came in and people said I was too negative about life. What I felt was, they just couldn't

11 more days

2009-04-13T23:44:00.002+08:00

11 more days and you will be backCounting down 10 to 1 seems really easy. And it may just takes 10 seconds to do the counting. By the time I finished blogging this post, it would be exact 10 days before you are back. To others, 10 days will come just really soon but counting and waiting for someone to be back when you have waited 100 over days is really long. 10 days never felt so long. Time

Graduated

2009-04-08T03:06:00.003+08:00

Okay. I am done with RP. Next up. Army.I attended graduation ceremony. It was just like any other one. Didn't feel really particular proud because it is just a diploma. Sitting in a graduation ceremony never feels good because you know that your friends and you are all going to take different paths in life and you might never even cross each other life again. I don't know how long before we will

Change

2009-03-10T22:33:00.003+08:00

Change is constant but human is resisting change because they like to be in their comfort zone and not move out of it. We fear change due to insecurity. We have this why must change mentality.Ben Ho has gone into police force for training today. On sunday, we came out to sort of like a send off dinner for him. When I went home, I felt insecured as I know I am going into NS soon. For better or

Contradicting

2009-03-06T13:58:00.002+08:00

This blog post is of course not meant for my girlfriend.First of all, I didn't even bother to read what you blogged on your blog until he told me about the content. Well you said you didn't want to defend yourself, but in the end you blogged about it. By blogging it out, aren't you already defending? Stop contradicting yourself. I simply can't stand people like you. For a matter of fact, you said

Questions

2009-02-23T00:05:00.003+08:00

All I have with me are questions.Change.Change is constant? I watched a show today. And it said, as we grow up the different people you meet, the places you go, the experience that you may cause the change in your character. If you were to meet person A, you would have become like this, and if you meet person B, then you might have become something else.Sometimes, I guess it is not a matter of

Thoughts

2009-02-01T22:04:00.002+08:00

I was on facebook and I saw my friend's status was she does not feel like going for her interview tml. It dawn upon me that I have graduated and many of my friends especially the girls are going out to the working world already. It seems frightening. Really. No more school, get ready to be scolded by boss and then can't do anything about it. In school, you can walk off and don't care now you

She

2009-02-01T00:34:00.003+08:00

She is the girl that can make me forget my stressShe is the girl that can make me happyShe is the girl that can make me sadShe is the girl that can make or break my dayShe is the girl that I can cry it all out with her. She is the girl that I miss each dayShe is the girl that.............All of a sudden, I wanna cry. I wanna cry in front of her. I don't know. I felt like a kid looking for a

Misses.

2009-01-29T12:06:00.001+08:00

All of a sudden, I forget how her voice sounds like. I miss her voice. I miss everything about her. We have not been chatting as she is busy and I am busy visiting. 83 more days to go. Yes!

CNY & Graduation

2009-01-29T12:04:00.001+08:00

I have blogged this on CNY. But on word. Finally I got time to tranfer it to my blog.CNY & GraduationLast Friday was the last day of my poly life. I made a video for my class and I am glad they appreciated my effort. The goodbye last Friday definitely felt heavy and different. I felt exactly the same when I graduated from my secondary school. I felt kind of lost not knowing what to do. I am lost

i did sth stupid

2009-01-15T09:02:00.000+08:00

okay. great i remembered i did something stupid when she asked me to type out her emergency contact number. here's what i did.fireman ....police ....ambulance ....superman ... and i keyed in my number. haha.its another 98 days more before she is back. its getting nearer. im a happy man. SJY im so gonna pinch you when you are back.

disappointed.

2009-01-13T22:58:00.005+08:00

it so boring. and i have to come up with FYP poster. I have no clue and I am lazy to start it. Really lazy to start. Classes are quite useless nowadays because simply everyone is in holiday mood. we wanna graduate!I may not attend class for quite a number of days next week. Reason being I have completed my daily grades and I don't need to go school anymore. Lazy to go to school also. last thing

Great

2009-01-09T08:52:00.002+08:00

I am back in school. My first day of the last 3 weeks in school. I didn't attend school yesterday also because I felt I wasn't ready for school. I was lost. So I told kok boon to gave me a day while I rest and pack my feelings before heading back to school. To her friends who might read my blog and to keep you guys inform. She has reach mannhelm. And everything is safe over there just that its

lonely

2009-01-08T14:20:00.003+08:00

Okay. on 6 january. i drove her and her mum out to bugis to pray and also to henderson waves. and then we went for buffet dinner at paramount hotel with her brother also.. I shan't describe much but that sums up the whole day.on 7th jan. i woke up but at her house as i stayed over. it was a day that i dread. i hate. i felt uncomfortable. i woke up, i send my mum home from market and then i went

Uneasy

2009-01-05T12:38:00.002+08:00

I have been feeling uneasy. I don't know. Each day I just felt low in confidence, morale in anything that I do. I felt that I am out of place. I don't know where I should be. I don't know where should I go. uneasy.

New year

2009-01-03T00:56:00.002+08:00

Happy new year guys. sorry. im late. if you have been following my blog, im not those type of person, who will update what i do exactly. now its past 12. so its exactly 4 more days before she is going to leave for germany for 3 months plus and be back. 7th jan will be the day. i mean, you guys must be thinking its only 3 months its not years. but she has never left me so long. the longest we were

9 more days

2008-12-29T01:19:00.002+08:00

Visa approved. Air ticket got to be done. She is leaving soon. 7th january. coming back in april. 7th January is date she is leaving, and its my fyp deadline. you guys must be thinking that we should be spending alot of time together but actually we didn't. 7th january that she is leaving haven't hit me yet. But maybe I will feel it the moment she leave check in. I went for medical checkup at

A mini Rehearsal. DAMN!

2008-12-17T23:44:00.000+08:00